Room In Your Heart

Squashed! Three consecutive days of squash spanning saturday to monday has left my body bruised, battered and more than a little worse for wear. Spent a good 30 min in the gym today before my aching limbs could not longer take the damage. But still the thrill of athletic competition (which I have had a serious lack of), full blown all out physical exertion and perspiration is simply SHIOK! Getting thrashed is a-ok since I had lotsa fun, did pull a few nice punches of my own (think I am improving a little at last!) and generally had a good work-out! Only thing is I cracked my racket (DRATS!).
Slogging for MANY MANY hours I have finally completed the essay. Like Rousseu actually, idealistic ... like me! And I think this is the longest amount of time I have ever taken to write an essay! (Ain't brood well for the exams!) Trying to get all my affairs (oops hope it doesn't sound like I am dying or smth) and study preparations ready b4 Friday night when I leave for Germany. Certain events that have transpired today has sent me on an inward journey of recollection.The difference between who I was and who I am now. If it seems I am more mellow and easy going now it is because I have no wish to repeat the mistakes of the past. In fact it is a necessity I think. Simply because beneath the calm there is ... something else. I have learnt to always take things lightly and to tackle any situation with a smile yet ... I can some times still feel fragments of the old implusive, bad tempered person wanting to break out. Okay okay I am not about to explode any time soon ... Its just a reflection plus London weather is great for the nerves! . Still ...
Yet by virtue of patience, friends lost, friends still with me and God's grace, the mistakes made will never have to be relearned again.
*breathe in, breathe out* ah feel much better. God has made life good and so it is.
Anyhow wadever problems there've been they'll be sorted out. Once again bible study seems to have brought things back into perspective and we know that God will provide if only we try.

On a different note ...

Living In A Box - Room In Your Heart

It's dark and cold tonight
I'm walking all alone
And one step at a time
I'm getting closer
I know she's hard to find
Instinctively I try,
To take the path of love into the night
There would be no reason if you really didn't care
There would be no reason for love

The door is open wide is anybody there?
I know this must be the room in your heart
I really don't know why but it's so easy to breathe
I know this must be the room in your heart

No answers question me
No one's been here before
I'm the first to see the light at your door
If I could hold you now I would not disagree
With these four walls you're protecting me
There would be no reason if you really didn't care
There would be no reason for love

The door is open wide is anybody there?
I know this must be the room in your heart
I really don't know why but it's so easy to breathe
I know this must be the room in your heart
I can feel it, I can feel it
I can feel the love that's surrounding me coming out of you
Just show me the way

The door is open wide, is anybody there?
I know this must be the room in your heart
I really don't know why but it's so easy to breathe
I know this must be the room in your heart
I know this must be, I know this must be
Is anybody there

The door is open wide, is anybody there?
I know this must be the room in your heart
I really don't know why but it's so easy to breathe
I know this must be the room in your heart
The door is open wide, is anybody there (fade).

Because I wait, smile and hope ...