All We Need Is Not Enough

Double goodbyes to my bro and dad. Gore left for the army yesterday and my dad left for Korea just half an hour ago. Hmm oddly I don't feel much save for the fact that the house is very much quieter now. Sometimes I turn to the central PC looking for Gore (who is ever present and STUCK to that gaming chair) and the terminal is empty. Its weird having this house without him ... cos despite all the fights we had when we were younger ... he's realli a fun guy to be with ... we have late night suppers together ... bum and watch movies together ... tok cock and play games together. Gore often says our family is detached and stuff but I think we get along pretty well ... closer than most families and siblings are at any rate. My dad too, I'll be missing him as well. Previously he'd just be gone 3-4 days a week but now he'll be gone for six months b4 he's next visit. Well I've had some time to get used to this but Den especially might find it slightly harder?
The guys were over again yesterday for RISK. It was just complete fun, noise and chaos! Just like old times (minus the fights mebbe haha!) ... Alex the ham-ji, Mash the tactical-idiot, etc! I'm really fond of the JC days. Yet there is a difference now. Everyone has their own direction now and even if we're still close you see the different paths our lives are taking. We dun meet as regularly for one thing and secondly with more girlfrens the guys are just disappearing more and more. Heh save mimi pang. Just the same old guy I knew 5 years ago. Anyhowz I think life just tends to get lonelier when u grow older. Leowy was telling me of his dad and from my dad's own experience ... the hypothesis seems to be right. (The one person who goes against this trend is my aunt who seems to have frens in umpteen countries - but she's not married).
I'm thinking some piece of the puzzle is missing. I've made a resolution however ... I need to get back on track! Enjoy myself and all but can't let my focus get lost ... its easy to get distracted (as my results on the 13th will show) sometimes and it takes will power to centre yourself but I've done it b4 so I can do it again! I've never regretted any action in my life so now is not the time to make the first ... I will leave LSE satisfied that I have made the best of my 3 years!