Flashin Dreams

Ended up spending quite some cash today. Father's day present. And a little polo tee for myself. However this is the first non-food expenditure i've made in awhile so ... dun feel too bad.
Something hilarious whilst the Gang of Three were mugging away today. The conversation suddenly morphed from stats/ maths to good-looking guys and our fren O__Y made a blooper ... it went like this: "guys do not need to have personality wad ... only the necessary body parts!" Haha we shall not mention who eh ...
Making many plans for post-exam week now! Kinda lost the mood already ... now all that's on my mind is fun, fun! Misato tmr ... looking forward to some good food. I think nothing makes guys happier than a nice full and satisfied tummy ... well almost nothing haha.

In My Dreams - Reo Speedwagon

There was a time some time ago
When every sunrise meant a sunny day, oh a sunny day
But now when the morning light shines in
It only disturbs the dreamland where I lay, oh where I lay
I used to thank the lord when I’d wake
For life and love and the golden sky above me
But now I pray the stars will go on shinin’, you see in my dreams you love me

Daybreak is a joyful time
Just listen to the songbird harmonies, oh the harmonies
But I wish the dawn would never come
I wish there was silence in the trees, oh the trees
If only I could stay asleep, at least I could pretend you’re thinkin’ of me’
cause nighttime is the one time I am happy, you see in my dreams

Chorus:
We climb and climb and at the top we fly
Let the world go on below us, we are lost in time
And I don’t know really what it means
All I know is that you love me, in my dreams

I keep hopin’ one day I’ll awaken, and somehow she’ll be lying by my side
And as I wonder if the dawn is really breakin’
She touches me and suddenly I’m alive

Chorus repeats 2x

Oho, in my dreams

In The Ocean Of Night

I was struck by this sense of dislocation, disorientation today ... Yesterday was the end of the stats paper and i told myself that I deserved a nice little break. So I spent many many many hours on the computer last night watching anime, movies ... and woke up at 12vish. Now ... the problem was I didn't know wad to do! After studying day and night for so long ... a simple day of freedom was leaving me a little bewildered. Heh well I bought a book ... two actually ... so I read ... and it was fantastic to finally be reading fiction again ... to be lost between worlds where u can forget your own problems, dreams and anxieties and instead immerse yourself in those of the characters and the author. Yesh I realized that apart from those things I have already mentioned ... I really do miss reading a lot since arriving in London. The stuff I've been reading these nine months is NOT light reading ... Thomas Hobbes, Varian, Abramovtiz (the names just leap out and stun you especially when you're trying hard to remember who said what) ... non-fiction carries it own charm I guess ... informative and sometimes even entertaining ... but ... you get the drift.
Ah well the reason I was stuck alone was because certain buds of mine were up in Biscester today. Shopping. Actually truth to tell they did ask me along and of course I like bargains too (since Biscseter is a kinda factory outlet) but just not really in the mood to spend hours running through clothes and stuff.
Btw it was blazing hot today. 29 degrees. Shows how weak I am now haha ... gonna be toast back home. But really one of the things I'm gonna miss here is the weather (when's its nice around 16 degrees). Its like a perpetual air-con.
Really hungry now. How does one get food at 0200 am in Central London? The answer is 42.

Set Me Free

This is what I have learnt these few months
1. Hard work mostly pays off but sometimes it does not.
2. Giving is just as good as receiving sometimes better.
3. Balances have to be struck. Life is a perilious scale.
4. Time is so important. You always need more of it.
5. The world ain't slowing down for no one. You have to keep up.
6. You don't really miss something till you are really deprived off it.
7. Family remains the centre of our lives no matter where we are.
8. Dreams are made in seconds but take years to pursue.
9. Friendship, bonds and relationships are sometimes queer and crooked but always precious.
10. Life is good no matter how much I complain!

Si Bei Chia Lat!

Nothing to say leh. Hahahaha. Blogging now cos I wanted to take a break. But got nothing much to report. Let me describe my room. Disarray. Like my head (no silly, not my hair! although thats pretty messy too!). Filled to the brim (also like my head). Filled with bits of junk food like sainsbury's orange juice ... milk chocolate digestives ... chocolate bars (alas this one unfortunately not like my head which is filled with visions of steaming laksa and kway chap!). Rather cosy now (not like my head which is in utter frenzy cos I am determined to do well AT LEAST for this GV paper ... but am unable to continue studying due to the fact that my brian has a limited capcity of TWO THINKERS per day when I am supposed to study FOUR for the exam) that I've lived here for so long ... its finally feeling a little more like home ... and just as I am leaving.
Heh so much for my room. Wait just as a sidepoint. I think your room says a lot about you. Well the physical dimensions are set (by your rent that is haha) but facade, furnishings, faces, fabrics (yeah the four 'F's of reading a room) aha they all speak about you. So mebbe if you wish to change your character you should fix your room first? haha or mebbe it has to be the other way around. I know what I want to be in life now! A "Room-Analysis Expert" -able to tell your personality from your room in a glance!
Ok now u can tell that I am slightly mad ... if you see the wildly spinning eyes as u walk by me ... or the slightly insane mutterings ... just give me a pass ... its just LSE (London Study Epilepsy). Have a date with Hobbes and Rousseau now ... they eagerly await my attention ... so ciao ;p!

I'm A Scorpion

My Horoscope I read somewhere ...

SCORPIO Oct 23 - Nov 21
If you've been finding that people have been avoiding you lately, it's because you're a scorpion. Now you know, you can remedy the situation. Or maybe not. (it was a joke btw ;p)

Haha. Quite right. Fits in with the luck.

Unvoiced

Apparently my horoscopic advice which I read in a newspaper column today goes: "You could easily regard recent setbacks as a real defeat. But they were unavoidable changes in the situations you're dealing with. Try to keep things as they were and you'll run into more difficulties. Adopt an uncharacteristically easy-going approach and you'll avoid problems later."
Well except for some of the most occult among us, we'd generally regard Zodiac signs as bull-crap. Hey but its sometimes fun in life to think we might have some idea about whats going to happen eh? Its one thing to know He draws the paths in life for us ... still some times you'd wish it were more clearly cut! But this particular piece of bull-crap speaks reason so no matter the diffculties ahead, I shall suck my breath in and march onward, never relenting, yet always :)
Phew it starts TMR! Never been more relaxed abt things so hope it pays off! I HATE LOSING! Glad its starting ... cos that means its gonna end! Haha!
Some things however don't change. I should be happy for such. Yet there are many things left unsaid and feelings unvoiced ... but they have to wait awhile more.

Repetitive Dilemmas & Cyclical Errors

Crap ... pray it does not happen AGAIN! Shoot yourself in the foot once its an accident ... twice you're a nuthead ... three times ... time to call a specialist and amputate your foot. Always i've told myself i've learnt something new ... but hey i dun wanna learn something new for once ... i just wanna have the dream realize itself.
Leowy: ic you're ENJOYING yourself back there! Will ring u soon when time permits and you can regale me with the number of hours you spend slacking in front of the PC or going out (generally ANYTHING but work)...
I'll bring u up to date on my life ... which will take all of abt 5 min ... prob less.

Desperate Times Call For Desperate Measures

Sheesh. 25 days left to go. Repetitive schedule is starting to kill me. The only thing that's changing about my day is the fact that everyday I study something different chapter or module. Boredom is the mind-killer. 5 days before it begins. Just trying my best to do that last minute cramming ... will it whizz by in a flash this time? It always did before ... during every major exam ... the Os and As. This one for some reason feels no less important despite it only counting as a single module ... maybe its just the seriousness I see in everyone's faces.
Lemme just say something about my diet. Its BAD. Skip bf most of the time since its too early. Lunch is sometimes half a pack of McVities Digestives or something like my fav Bacon and Egg Bab from Wright's Bar. Dinner is normally an eat out - was Wong Kei's again today. Ah well can feel the pounds adding on already ... have decided that a strict regimen of exercise, lotsa fruits and juice is the only thing that will save me when I'm back home in Singapore! Haiz but I'm suddenly filled with visions of BBQ sting ray, katong laksa, siglap longtong, kway chap and Apollo char kway teow! Hmmm but this is a problem for the days AFTER 22nd June!

A Blog Entry

I thought I ought to add several words about my day. Its a BLOG after all. Following a slightly disconcerting night I was dragged to consciousness by ... the SUN at 12 (no cleaning ladies barging into my room with vacuum cleaner on full blast). To school where I sat with fellow mugger Hui Fern ... all the way it went ... people came and went ... Feng Qian, Karthick ... till finally it was just Kelvin, Sam and Moi left. I think I made the record for longest number of hours with my butt stuck to one particular seat in the brunch bowl haha. Not that its the best place to study ... but once in awhile its nice to look up and see the buzz of people around you. Didn't even realize it was dinner time at 730 when Kelvin arrived with his dinner. Its seems kinda WRONG to have dinner when the sun's all blazing up in the sky. Not too long more ;p and did I mention? Thanx for the words.

Turn Back The Clock ...

Memories in hazy shades are all we have sometimes ... but memories are what we truly are. Beautiful memories, dazzling memories, painful memories. I woudn't part with any of them for the world. Some times I think back on all the things I should have, could have done and those things I should not have ... thankfully I always reach the conclusion that its better to be me than anyone else. Looking back on the joys, wonders, mistakes and regrets that I've accumulated ... I'm finally old enuf to stare each one in the eye. Ah ... must be lao le ... hahaha

Johnny Hates Jazz - Turn Back The Clock

Another day is ended
And I still can’t sleep
Remembering my yesterdays
I begin to weep
If I could have it over
Live my life again
I wouldn’t change a single day

(chorus)
I wish that I could turn back the clock
Bring the wheels of time to stop
Back to the days when life was so much better

Lying here in silence
Picture in my hand
Of a boy I still resemble
But I no longer understand
And as the tears run freely
How I realise they were the best years of my life

(chorus)

You might say it’s just
A case of giving up
No
But without these memories where is the love
Where is the love

If I could have it over
Live my life again
I wouldn’t change a single day

(chorus)

Why can’t I turn back the clock
Bring the wheels of time to a stop
Back to the days
Oh no noI remember when
Life was so good
I’d go back I’d I could
Oh oh I wouldn’t change a single day
Don’t let the memories slip away
I wouldn’t change a single day
Don’t let the memories slip away

Retrospective Observations

Sometimes I wonder what is happening. Am I oblivious to everything ard me? I try to reach out and grasp it ... but it just eludes me ... I should know something ... but I don't. I have a bad feeling (as always). Only time will tell. But by then its usually too late. Story of my life.

Freezin Pitch, Two Guys, Many Girls, One Odd-Shaped Ball

After a lapse of 5 days ... I shall finally update my blog (because sadly this is the first time in 5 days there has been anything interesting to say!) Packed off to an early start at Passfield Hall with Sherwayn. We visited the bank to check out the High Interest Accounts. Have to think for the future no matter how much I tried to avoid to! Would like to have some money when I start out in life ... I know my dad will give me smth but still its better to know you have something of your own eh? Well anyway the interest here is pretty good and I've just set up two savings accounts ... hopefully the interest earned is substantial (yes my dear fren ... ANY money at all is good no matter the sum!).
We met out heroic Rugby finalists at 12 at the Tuns. This was followed by a 45 min tube ride ... a bus ride and walk through one of the towns near Harlington Cross (you'll discover why I remember the name) ... a traditional English bf (for lunch) for me and Hot Choc for both me and Sher (it was freezin!) ... finally when it was time to return to the pitch to observe the match ... well you guessed it ... we HOR LANNED (that's getting lost for those of you not so well acquainted with Hokkien) ... sheesh we returned only 15-20 min after the match started! Anyway it was a pretty good match, I thought our girls' team was technically more advanced but lacked some of the speed that the opposition Imperial College (eee ... science nerds!) had. Some of their tries were really spectacular runs that would have given either of us guys a run for our money (or legs in this case). All the while I was playing cameraman trying to get in snaps of our very own rugby players but in all the tumble and hussle I only managed a series of fotos that can only be discribed as a unidentifiable and milling mass of female rugby players. So for one particular rugby girl: Results aside, Great Job! I witnessed some of the journey toward the final and it lacked nothing in will and effort! ;p
The day ends sadlywith Sherwayn and I trudging home (tube really but considering the tube it really is like trudging!) to Passfield dinner. Urrkk (thats all I can say abt dinner).
Right off to sleep now ... oh and thanx nolly for informing me that weird is spelt WEIRD not WIERD! heh ...