Smth About Women & Gambling ...

I dream of rain
I dream of gardens in the desert sand
I wake in pain
I dream of love as time runs through my head

Sweet desert rose
This memory of Eden haunts us all
This desert flower
This rare perfume, is the sweet intoxification of her love

I've got a little quote from my first cursory read of Robert Jordan's - the guy never ceases to fascinate me by being able to write from so many varying and differing view points - Knife of Dreams, Book Eleven of The Wheel of Time: Women are always a gamble, but sometimes a smile could be win enough. Haha how true ;p ...
Hah now he leaves me hanging and waiting most impatiently for Book Twelve which, by average estimates of his writing speed, will be released only in TWO YEARS!
On a different note ... its been a remarkably uneventful weekend. Three words can sum it up nicely - cooking, soccer, mugging.

andrew's 22!

dinner at county hall! mmmm!

Biking and Books ...

Well the only note-worthy incident of the last two days was our little cycling expedition today to Elephant and Castle! It was frought with perils (due to our relative inexperience and serious lack of skill!) and a little hair raising at times (just try London traffic!). Hee the funniest incident was along Waterloo bridge. Despite keeping a constant watch on my dear compatriot all along the bridge, she as NOWHERE to be found when I reached the end! Panicking, I lugged the bike onto my shoulder and began to RUN up waterloo bridge. Nearing the mid-point however I received a call and was informed that I was a dodo-bird since she was now AHEAD of me having overtaken me AROUND a bus. Phew! Cycling is fun though. ;p
PLUS Robert Jordan's Wheel of Time, Book 11 - Knife of Dreams, and George R. R. Martin's A Feast of Crows are finally out!!!!!!!!!! I purchase both hard-backs almost instantaneously from Forbidden Planet (the latter even AUTOGRAPHED!!!!)! Yay! So happy! I'd almost thought that that old man Robert Jordan had died - he was taking too for this last installment (nearly 2.5 years) - and if he had left the story hanging half way after ELEVEN books I would have killed him DEADER! *Bliss* ;D

Its Not That Simple ... Life That Is ... Then Again Wad Is?

I've been burdened by several thoughts for some while now. While this has meant that I do sit and think about my priorities, my life and problems more often now, the unfortunate fact is that the accumulation of these anxieties creates a feeling of hesitancy more often than not. I'm now at a lull point of my life where several important decisions have to be made and because I don't like to make decisions with long term consequences I'm sorta ... STUCK. Its easy when you're looking no longer than a few months into the future but when the battleground of choice affects possibly your entire career or at the least the next few years, hmmm ... Give me awhile though. I'll come round and by then I'll just blast my way through toward the target just like I always did.
Well life's decisons aside, last night was a rather eventful night. We made a visit to Turnpike lane in Zone 3 to visit Wilfred's household. As usual Cass's food was wonderful and the SIZE of their house and the MINISCULE rent they pay just makes me think we got on the bad end of a deal! I know we pay for the distance and convenience but ... still there's no place like home of course and I've come to feel very cosy, comfy and rested when I return to that little room of mine (sounds familiar?) in Flat 3. Haha ... I think I'm just quite adaptable is all ... anyway I'll be posting some pics of our little home very soon ... so just wait. Alright the dreaded GV 264 awaits ... I hate my GV courses this year! Sighz! Politics and Institutions in Europe ... wad the hell????

Found Some Ground (",)

Yesh I've finally found some ground. Some footing on which to move forward and a plan for the near future. Its as I've been saying ... a very, very rough and disorientating few weeks. So with the spare time I've had this last 2 days ... I've just literally been slacking! Caught a few episodes of Bleach, some other animes, even caught Charlie and the Choc Factory last night (had company for half the show at least hehe). All I need now is to get back into steam ...
Added some Madrid Fotos ... you guys can go have a look!
Hmmm in the last week ... Coach visited and brought a whole lot of stuff for me (yay!) including two of my fav - sugi cookies and pineapple tarts!!! ... First week of classes (hectic!) ... Planning a trip to Rome with Ongy (hope it goes through!!!! ... Cooked our first household dinners (curry chicken, spring rolls, tom yum mmmm!) ... Busy week of work at the Careers fair (triggered 3 alarms and one barrel of spilt coffee) ... Signed up for a volunteer program ... Great morning of soccer! Yup ;D

Oh and here are some announcements!
1. Happy Birthday Leowy!!! You liked the prez didn't u?? (I hope!)
2. Thanx for the prez Dennie Wennie and Gore! Always wanted my own massage oil bwahahaha!

Hey, don't write yourself off yet
It's only in your head you feel left out or looked down on.
Just try your best, try everything you can.
And don't you worry what they tell themselves when you're away.

It just takes some time, little girl you're in the middle of the ride.
Everything (everything) will be just fine, everything (everything) will be alright (alright).
Hey, you know they're all the same.
You know you're doing better on your own, so don't buy in.
Live right now.
Yeah, just be yourself.
It doesn't matter if it's good enough for someone else.

Frozen

Now there's no point in placing the blame
And you should know I'd suffer the same
If I lose you, my heart would be broken
Love is a bird, she needs to fly
Let all the hurt inside you die
You're frozen when your heart's not open
If I could melt your heart
We'd never be apart

Mmmm ... If I could melt your heart ...

Its wearing, painful and awkward. I'm tired of avoiding. I need your help in this. Will u?

Every Other Time

Sometimes its black
Sometimes its white
Sometimes she's wrong
Sometimes I'm right
Sometimes we talk about it
Or we figure it out
But then she'll just change her mind
Sometimes she's hot
Sometimes I'm cold
Somtimes my head wants to explode
But when I think about it
I'm so in love with her
Every other time
Yeah, every other time

Didn't Have Much To Say

Some days it seems that nothing you do makes things right and nothing you do is right for anyone. It seems like everyday is a trial in the truest sense of the word ... as if my life is being examined and graded meticulously- every aspect of it, every day, every minute.
Plus I never had any idea I was so universally disliked! Not that I care its just that I'm so sick of all this two-facedness. Social life is just a crap sometimes ... hermits have it right sometimes.
In fact what does it say abt your life when you're too tired physically, mentally, psychologically and emotionally to blog more than this?
God is there though. We can seek strength from that.

some ARTISTIC shots (",)

erm ... i ran out of caption titles ... how about "The Madrid Musketeers"? erm ... "werid Madrid fotos?" hehe ;p

Smile! Life is Laughter! ;D ;D ;D ;D ;D ;D ;D ;D

loony toons visit Madrid!!! ;p

wonderful views and fantastic friends! my best bud and my saviour!

So Much To Do, So Little Time

So Much To Do, So Little Time is how The Economist describes Tony Blair. Yeap I feel exactly like the old boy. We seem to be rushing around everywhere these days, having to set-up my language course, internet, spruce up the place, books and courses for the year, last little bit of Singsoc stuff ... it goes on.
Two nites ago my household (minus Ben) set out on the gruesome task of spring cleaning our kitchen. Before you underestimate the magnitude of the task let me just tell u that before our works, the fridge smelled of garlic, the washing machine was emmitting a weird odour, the cupboards were coated with an estimated 5 years of grime and left-over food and the dustbins and stool was sticky, eekie and gross! Anyway armed with the fantastic Dettol we managed to make the kitchen look not only livable but actually nice! We saved the fridge as 'punishment' for the missing Ben hehe!
Anyhowz I was a little moody and stressed last nite over the entire job and summer internship. Had not only a little 'counselling' session with our dear house mates but also a massive debate about the crappy state of the world. Haha. Our conclusion: The World Sux and there's not much we can do! ;(

Home On The Range ... Theobalds Road!

A Place Called Home ... finally! Its a trifle small, slightly dingy but otherwise very acceptable! I may complain a lot but in the end ... I can live with most things ... its just fun to complain once in awhile! Anyway room's smaller than expected but no big deal ... I've lived with worse.
The four of us, together with Kelvin and Nic invaded Ikea yesterday. In the end only Nic, Vet and myself bought anything at all (Sam and Ben deciding to return AGAIN today!). Spent a shit load of money ... wardrobe, chair, bedside table, rugs, bins ... but I feel really excited cos I finally get a room of my own with my own furnishings and which I can decorate without having to shift some bit of furniture! See it doesn't take much to make me happy! ;p
Think the four of us are going to get a along just fine ... we're MOSTLY (:D) light hearted and easy going and all of us are pretty reasonable and responsible people willing to give and take. Gonna be still be rather busy the next few days though ... Ikea's shipping the furniture in on Monday ... we gotta get out broadband up and running ... many, many home essentials to be bought ... house issues to be raised with our landlord, Philip ... and of cos laundry! - I hate having clothes left unwashed! and its piling up!
School starts tmr ... just some wishes and goals for the school year ...

1. Ace Our Results
2. More Foreign Friends
3. Get Internship In UK
4. More Active In Societies Other Than Singsoc
5. Just That One Special Friend ;p

Hmmm this reminds me ...

Oh give me a home where the buffalos (Sam, Ben, Vet and Jus) roam
Where the deer and the antelope play
Where seldom is heard a discouraging word
And the skies are not cloudy all day

Home, home on the range
Where the deer and the antelope play
Where seldom is heard a discouraging word
And the skies are not cloudy all day!!!!